disaat waktu dan hati menentukan

Aku tak tahu apa yang kurasakan sekarang...rasa ini seperti masih bergejolak disaat dekat dia dan terus menyatakan dialah sosok yg kamu cari...dan sampe detik ini,aku pun masih berusaha untuk terus belajar memahami dunianya yg tiada ujung dann aku pun tak tahu ujung dr hidup ini...

tolong aku...
kenapa aku masih terjebak sayang padanya...
tapi kenapa dia enggan memperbaikinya...
dia sempat mengungkapkan bahwa dia takut mengulangnya lg..dan takut membuat aku kecewa lg...hooff...

cinta orang dewasa itu sungguh rumit...
disaat cinta...waktu, uang dan kerjaa berkumpul...
bukan cinta monyet, yang gampang cublak cublek kesana kemari...
disaat sebuah pengertian terus diperjuangkan untuk dapat menerima satu sama llain...
hooof,pelajaran yg berat...
pengertiann akan sebuah masa depan digenggaman tangan bedua...
yah walaupun belom ada perbincangan soal masa depan tapi tak tau kenapa aku merasa sekarang sosok dia begitu beda dari 1tahun kmrn...sosoknya sungguh dewasa dan fokus..
beda saat dia kuliah lalu..
terkadang benar ya kata senior sma ku dl,"biarkan waktu yg mendewasakan kalian.."

yahh semoga aja suatu hari aku dapat lulus dalam menjalani fase pembelajaran ini,amin...

kata jujur dari sebuah hati..

Disaat hati berkata jujur. Akankah butiran ombak-ombak itu dapat dilalui..aku seperti diterjang ombakombak yang meresahkan hatiku..Dengan segala status palsu seakan-akan selalu menyilapku..aku ga tau statusku sebenarnya..hingga detik ini aku masih bertemunya dan berlaku seperti berada di panggung sandiwara. Kita dengan teman dekat kita masing-masing bertemu layaknya seorang pacaran..hingga detik ini aku jg masih belum dapat memastikan apa yg terjadi en when it'll be end..aku berjalan seperti dihhantaran kapas-kapas diangkasa..mengambang...hati kita tidak bersatu..aku tak tahu apa yang menjadikan hati kita tak menyatu..namun kenapa sampe detik ini kita masih jalan meski tahu hati kita tak bisa menyatu...rasanya aku ingin memeluk dia lebih lama...ingin mengenggam tangannya agar tak jauh dari aku..namun aku tak sangggup, aku tak sanggup melihat dia begitu seantusias itu...
aku inginnn merangkul tangannya namun hatiku seperti berkata lain...
aku inginn menggenggam tangannya tapi hati kita seakan menolak...
aku ga tau salah dimana..
tapi aku tak tahu juga kenapa ini masih saja diteruskan..
aku tak ingin membodohi diri tapi kenapa aku selalu dibodohi oleh cinta..

Yes,i stiilll love u when i see u..

Hoof...it's the hardest thing for me..

i'll be left back for a few days...

in 2week, i'm only meet 2 times :(, very short times..

en now i must let him to go away again, really so hard..

i'm very miss him..

i miss when i touch him...

when i see his eyes..

his position can't replaced by anyone..

yaa Although he is the past of my life..

But why i should think that My heart always tell i still love him..

I still remember when we're laughing together...

He also too..like yesterday, we meet together and we went to my friend's wedding together like nothing happen wit each other..

always like this, nothing happen wit each other..

I think this is very strange..

he still care wit me..i'm also too..

if u see close to us, we like in a relationship..

but the strange things is we're also close to other people..

I like reflect on myself..see in his inbox messanger..i see the message from the girl..

hoof, i can't jeoulous..because i'm also do the same thing wit his attitude..

and i can't judge he musn't close other people because i'm not a girlfriend..

Our status is actually very confusing .. while we hope this relationship will becomeserious, but he still seemed hesitant to expect this relationship become serious. whileour time together was almost never there .. we always spent by the work .. work andwork ... then when can ketemunya if no one wants to budge .. courtship via phone viasms .. ... I just miss when we were together when we are going out first ..
I only hope someday you'll understand what I'm feeling ..

Luv u my ex..

Bosan itu datang kembali

Aku tidak tahu lagi harus berbuat apalagi..Setiap ku terjun kedalamnya, aku seperti terdampar di sebuah pulau yang benar-benar hilang kendali...Sekarang bukan saatnya mencari siapa yang salah, dan siapa yang benar..yang aku inginkan..ayo,sobat..rengkuh tangan kalian erat-erat..bangun semua ini dari awal dengan tangan kebersamaan kita..

Ku yakin itu lebih dari segalanya sobat..

Yah namun kata-kata itu tidak mudah begitu saja dilaksanakan..Tiap hari aku hanya tertegun dan berharap kalian mengerti apa intuisi yang terbaik untuk pemecahan ini. Diam aku, Bukan aku tidak ingin berada diposisi kalian...Diam ku ini untuk membiarkan kalian merasa apa yg aku ucapkan dapat berarti dikehidupan kita..Namun Aku tidak ingin lantas lari dari apa yang ada, aku hanya ingin melihat kedepan dan menatap esok yang cerah..

Pilihan aku hanya 2..maju ato mundur..

Dan Alhamdulillahnya saat ini aku masih maju bersama kalian..

We'll see it on several month..

mau kalian percaya dengan aku atau tidak..itu bukan urusan saya..Saya hanya mengerjakan apa yang saya kerjakan..So, lebih baik intropeksi apakah diri kita ndiri udah pantas dijadikan suri tauladan untuk orang lain..

Dan secara tidak sadar sebenarnya, aku sendiri begah dengan diam ku ini..So, mengertilah dengan indikasi apa yang aku ungkapkan..

Two Door Cinema Club - Something Good Can Work

Especially for someone out there..thanks for this song..

semrangaatt \\(^-^)// start to stop sad!!

Let's move on...



There's a spanner in the works you know,
you gotta step up your game to make to the top.
So go!
Gotta little competition now,
you're going to find it hard to cope with living on your own now.
Uh oh!
Uh oh!

Let's make this happen, girl you gonna show the world that something good can work and it can work for you.
And you know that it will.
Let's get this started girl, we're moving up we're moving up It's been alot to change but you will always get what you want.
Took a little time to make it a little better,
it's only going out, just one thing and another,
you know!
You know!

Took a little time to make it a little better,
it's only going out, just one thing and another,
you know!
You know!

Let's make this happen, girl you gonna show the world that something good can work and it can work for you.
And you know that it will.
Let's get this started girl, we're moving up we're moving up but It's been alot to change but you will always get what you want.

Let's make this happen, girl you gonna show the world that something good can work and it can work for you.
And you know that it will.
Let's get this started girl, we're moving up we're moving up but It's been alot to change but you will always get what you want.

Let's make this happen, girl you gonna show the world that something good can work and it can work for you.
And you know that it will.
Let's get this started girl, we're moving up we're moving up but Its been alot to change but you will always get what you want

Bruno Mars - Grenade

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss,
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash

You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You’ d watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby;
But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no